Doctors

Ya know as I was laying in bed last night I got to thinking about lots of different things doctors have said to me over the years that have stuck with me. Some good, some bad, some humiliating and just disgraceful. With that said here are some quotes from doctors that I will always remember....the good the bad and the ugly!

1) "Most babies born at 25 weeks have about a 60% chance of survival, given Carter's condition....I would give him about 30% survival rate"

2) "If you are called or paged to come to NICU; it is NOT a good thing"

3) "We just need to get past the 24 hour mark, then we need to get to the 48 hour mark, we have to take it day by day minute by minute" "At this point I can not tell you if they will live or not"

4) "Your life is about to be an extreme roller coaster ride, so try and get some rest"

5) "I can finally say that your baby will live, but that is about all I can predict for you"

6) "Your child is smarter than a dog and if you can train a dog you can train him"

7) "If he won't eat then just don't feed him; he will eventually eat"

8) "If you think you have it bad then you should walk around with me for a day and see some really "bad" kids" "you have it better than a lot of moms"

These are just some that popped into my head last night and thought I would share with all of you! I am certainly bless that my children lived. They are my special lil gifts from the Lord above. He gave them to me as my special gift and I will honor his wish and be the best mom and wife I know how to be. My life was forever changed on Sept. 13, 2003. I wouldn't trade my life with anyone, I have the perfectly imperfect life anyone could ask for! Love to all of my family friends and supporters along the way!

Bad Blogger!

I haven't been a very good blogger recently - people keep asking me if I've stopped blogging.....the answer is NO! I love to blog, but we've had a difficult summer. Our family has gone through a lot of emotions over the summer - several deaths in our family and dearest friends. Lee's mother recently passed away. She lives in California and it was very upsetting for him #1 because he had not spoken to her in a while and #2 because he wasn't able to attend her funeral in California.
On another note, I am worried about Logan....his OCD has gotten to an all time high this summer. He is so obsessed with PBS Kids. He used to just be ok with watching a show on PBS so he could see the logo at the bottom of the screen, but now he seems obsessed with Dot and Dash (the characters who promote PBS Kids). Dot and Dash appear for about 10 seconds and he wants them on all the time. I am really unsure what to do at this point. Do I just turn the TV off all together? Medication? I have no idea, but we are all about to be in for a ride when school starts back. I start graduate school in August - which is going to be difficult to say the least and the boys start 2nd grade. I am worried about them going back to school because their routine has been absolutely destroyed this summer and I am just as bad. UGH I have two classes that start at 7:30am. I am going to be a walking Zombie for a while. Sorry this blog has been on the depressing side, this is one reason I haven't blogged. I felt as if I didn't have anything positive to say then I just shouldn't post anything, but that's not life....we all have times like this we go through so why not just share it with the world, lol. Maybe this will help me get out of my funk.
It has been really hard to be alone without my husband for a month at a time. I am ready for school to start back so I can have some adult interaction again. I miss my school friends and having a daily routine.
We did have a great vacation at the beach for a week- I will post some pics. The boys love the beach. Carter loves to ride the waves in the boat and Logan loves standing on the shore letting the water wash across his feet. Ahhh I love those memories. I wish we lived closer to the coast so we could go more than once a year.
I think may have said this before, but when we go to the beach....it is the one place where I don't feel a difference in my kids and others. It is the one place I feel normalcy. They play and love the beach like all the other kids there. It is so nice sometimes to feel normal.
I really think maybe we should relocate to Gulf Shores after I graduate???? Or buy a time share, doesn't that sound absolutely fabulous? Well that just totally brightened my spirits. Until the next time; thank you everyone for supporting my journey! xoxo Toni