Nothing Like This

I would love to think less about the future, worrying about what it will bring for my children. I can only try my best day by day; I cannot control how life will turn out. I have no control - everything is in God's hands. I try to be a good mother, but lets face it somedays I feel inadequate and want to give up. That is not an option. I will hold you and I won't let you down; you're gonna make it because I will stand by you and help you through. But what happens when I am gone...Lord please take care of my babies!

I am giving myself over to you Lord!

I used to believe that I can do a lot of things and considered myself an organized multi-tasker able to take on the world but... I can give all I am, I can fake a smile, I can pretend, I can be a machine day in and day out, I can do it, I will get through it, I best under pressure, I will take any challenge because I am an overachiever. But....I'm only human and I can crash and fall down- want to hide from the world; tucked away in my closet and cry. I should be strong and fight, but I just want to escape somedays and just be me and not worry what people will think. I can do it...I can do it...but I'm only human and I cry when things get too much for me to handle. I avoid so many situations because of my anxiety. I want to give everything I am over to the Lord. Please take care of me Lord and just get me through it. As each day passes it gets harder and harder - take my suffering away Lord and ease my pain.