WOW! What an awesome response to my first couple of blog entries. I had no idea this blogging thing could be so therapeutic, so here goes again.
One of the main struggles I have dealt with concerning my boys was the not knowing what the future will hold. No doctor or therapist ever had the answer for me, but nobody knows the answer to his or her future. So what was all this worrying for? My biggest fear….if something happens to Lee and I who will care for my children with special needs? It’s a huge task for someone to care for 2 special needs children. What happens when we are 80? Will we be too fragile to care for them? You know what….at the end of the day it doesn’t matter. The Lord will take care of them and I can’t continue to worry about what tomorrow holds. I can’t wait for the day we all meet our Lord and Savior Jesus. My boys will be perfectly healthy. They will walk, talk, and tell me everything they always wanted to but couldn’t. This is the day I am waiting for. I would never want to change who they are now, because if I changed them they would not be Carter or Logan anymore. They have taught me more than any professor ever could. They taught me compassion, trusting in the Lord, patience, forgiveness, what it’s like to love someone unconditionally. My heart is so full and I truly feel utterly blessed that the Lord entrusted me with my precious special children. He honored me by giving me these children….He loved me enough to bless me with my wonderfully abnormal life! Thank you Jesus for all your blessings!
